Saturday, May 21, 2011

I have a new goal....

I left my acting company a year ago. And I AM STILL RECOVERING. I got hurt at Banana Republic, and have just been sleeping, resting, reading, writing, and going through men like tissues. We will cover that another time. Right now-my goal is to be pain-free. I had given up hope and was just going through the motions and trying to ignore being in an amount of pain I had never before fathomed. On a daily basis. Last summer was just vomiting and migraines due to the heat. Last summer was 106 degree heat for a LOT of the summer. In august? I think it was august-I fell in the shoe room at my store, felt a crack and knew something happened. Something very, very bad. Several months later, I finally started having, oh, three hour MRI's. Yup. I did something. I herniated two discs in my thoracic. Owwww. Ever since I found out I have taken stock of my life and realized, I don't like this. And I have been fighting the good fight with comp for physical therapy. I have dutifully gone to all my appointments, taken all my pills like a good girl, and am spending time renegotiating my emotions. I am an anxiety ridden shell of myself some days, but those days are balanced by a good one, here and there. My new goal is to make the good days as frequent as possible.  I am back with Ally, my pt at Therapeutic Inspirations, who I have known since she only had one child. She now has two, and it's been six years. Before that several years with Brendan, and a flirtation with Dave. Oy. You can measure my life in physical therapists and doctors. But at least I have learned.....