Friday, February 4, 2011

Pursuit of Happiness

Is this progress? I am still at Banana Republic. I don't hate my job. I like it most of the time. I dress men. That's right. I sell clothes to men and put outfits together for them. Which is relatively hilarious to me, because if you had asked me what I was going to be doing with my life at my age-it certainly wouldnt be "salesgirl".(Ok-Million Dollar Seller at the Men's store, but still....). Well. I do other things too. I go to the doctor. I write. I am Rebuilding-which is a time consuming job, in and of itself. But-I have spent several years at Banana Republic. And-I really feel that my time of character building is OVER. I saw the Black Swan the other day-and I realized that my time with my long term director made me feel a bit like Nina. And it's time to move on and become the person I was. I remember when I first got to NYC-the fear and anticipation and just JOY I felt just walking down the street. I want that back. Because now I am accepting the facts. That stuff happened to me and I will be living with it forever and nothing will ever change that. But it's different than the way I used to feel, too. But -confessional over for this Irish girl. I start a new marketing job and am off to find my bliss....everyone is entitled to the pursuit of happiness, right? Oh, and I have new headshots.